I always thought not being happy life everyone else or not having the success they did, I was broken. There was something wrong with me. When I looked at my life I didn’t understand how it could be so full yet I could feel so empty inside. I could hurt the way I did.
I felt like I was being selfish.How could I be so ungrateful? How could I feel so sad when I surrounded by so much love. So I did what I do best. I researched. Whenever I had a problem I researched. I researched why I felt so low. I wanted reassurance that I wasn’t a bad person.
This is what I came across.
Life is not meant to be all smooth sailing. Life is supposed to teach us how to be better versions of ourselves. It is supposed to teach us what is right and what is wrong. It is supposed to help us become wiser. Our experiences there to make us stronger. I was feeling sad because I doubted myself. I always doubted my worth. All I wanted to be was someone special to people. I realised quickly I had to realise my worth to be happy. All I had to do was be who I am. I didn’t have to be more. I could grow, no doubt. I could change but I was already enough. I always thought I was never enough. Ever. Truth is I was more than enough I just wasn’t allowing myself to see that.
Now I know my first three posts have been…deep, I guess. But that is because here I am situating myself. I want you all to know who I am, who I was and who I hope to be. I haven’t been this open with anybody and I know it is about time I am.
I have a story to tell. I have people I want to help. I have things to share and thankfully a voice to share it with.